Defending the Kingdom

**David Aames** · October 12th, 2004, 01:28 AM

It's funny how ones mind can play tricks on them, is it not?

I once was given the keys with the opportunity to do with them whatever I choose. A seemingly endless amount of paths open to me and all of them filled with wonderful attractions on the way all the while leading to a fantastic place.

Content to snowboard through life, however, I refused to open my eyes.

Often times I can now, in fact, close my eyes and be whisked away back to those times and places. Ever so briefly, I can recreate them perfectly in my head and see the beginnings of a smile or smell a now distant fragrance as if it were again right under my very nose. But again, these are no longer my realities nor the paths I blindly chose with the set of keys I was given.

But the most important key I know now lies at the bottom of a free flowing river. I've sat and wept many tears from upon the bridge above.

If only I could go back and guard this key. Guard this key from myself. Guard this key from my foolish hands.

The look of my face only serves as scarlet letter to the accident that I caused. The accident that I steered the both of us into. The ride I had convinced myself into taking.

And again I sit upon the bridge and watch the water flow. Sometimes it appears gentle however I am afraid of the current below.

I cannot swim.

At least I don't think I can. I've not tried. How do I know?

So many questions I ask myself. How could I have remain frozen in the time it mattered most? Did I really believe my dream would last forever? Though frozen, my love for you is something I cannot let go. Always, I will.

No one knows me and no one cares. Anymore.
Why should they? Did I even know myself? Did I try or did I even care? Better yet, was I truthful to myself and those around me? Yes, no...I don't know. Again, does it even matter now?

What's that?

The water is rising.

**demon chloe** · October 12th, 2004, 01:41 AM

I will dedicate
And sacrifice my everything for just a second's worth
Of how my story's ending
And I wish I could know if the directions that I take
And all the choices that I make won't end up all for nothing
Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Help me carry on
Assure me it's ok to use my heart and not my eyes
To navigate the darkness
Will the ending be ever coming suddenly?
Will I ever get to see the ending to my story?
Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
So when and how will I know?
How much further do I have to go?
How much longer until I finally know?
Because I'm looking and I just can't see what's in front of me
In front of me
Show me what it's for
Make me understand it
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?
I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer

I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?

I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?

I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?

I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer
Is there something more than what i've been handed?

**Father Dave** · October 12th, 2004, 01:42 AM

hell...don't know about the rest of y'all...but i liked it.

i give it 2 [img]graemlins/thumbs_up.gif[/img] up.

dave

**demon chloe** · October 12th, 2004, 01:57 AM

"I regret having made you feel bad", "Pardon me", "I love you", "I hold you in high esteem", take good care of yourself" and sometimes "I have always loved you, only I never told you".

Meaningless...unless meaning is granted to these words.....

WOrds

Only words

I hold true to feelings

**Father Dave** · October 12th, 2004, 02:14 AM

"....i tried,

 .......almost."

dave

**demon chloe** · October 12th, 2004, 02:20 AM

those words kill me

**Father Dave** · October 12th, 2004, 02:29 AM

and yet it is what so many say without
ever saying it...

like a call that never comes,
an echo that only whispers back...

a lover who says
"thank-you"...

a shout into a box-
a finger to god
a tree that falls
and you are alone
and you
hear
nothing...

[ October 11, 2004 11:39 PM: Message edited by: Father Dave ]